[ Maybe if Yuji wasnāt thinking about that, Megumi is just being silly. She married Satoru first, and though Yuji started dating Suguru fairly soon after they were introduced, Megumi has always been leery of the effortless intimacy the two best friends have together. Itās the kind of insecurity she can intellectualize and shuffle away, never examine it too closely because doing so only ties her up into more knots ā and maybe itās easier to swallow now, with things the way theyāre going with Yuji.
ABORT ABORT. ]
Nothing, never mind. If heās into it, thatās good, right? What kind of stuff does he want to do?
megumi, tell me if weāre gonna do this we need to be honest with each other
[ Yujiās had her fair share of concerns and jealousies about Suguru and his relationship with Gojo - for a little while in the start of their relationship sheād felt like a consolation prize, because he couldnāt have his best friend. She knows better now, of course, but something those insecurities prickle at her in her weaker moments. ]
i used to. i was really scared that suguru didnāt want me, he just couldnāt have gojo-kun, you know? but he loves me. he only wants to do this because iām there too.
[ And knowing that Yuji believes Suguru makes it easier for Megumi to trust every layer of this. She feels like she keeps looking for the proof of her inconvenience, evidence that sheās a resource rather than a partner or (at worst) a useful idiot who only says āyesā because she hopes thatās how sheāll earn love.
But, no, every sign here points towards sincerity, an effort to include her instead of finding a convenient place to shuffle Megumi out of the way. Maybe she should be less braced for rejection and less prepared to do it first. ]
i get it. i used to think⦠how could i ever compare to gojo-kun? heās so handsome, and smart, and way better than i am like, they have a bond i cant touch and i used to get so mad and upset, butā¦
[ Itās hard to put her utter faith in Suguru into words. Yuji truly and utterly believes him when he says he loves her and doesnāt want Satoru, even when sheād bullied and badgered him. Even with the depth of their connection, heād choose her, and has to cling to that trust because otherwise their relationship simply wonāt work.
Sheās not second best. Sheās his wife and he chose her. He loves her.
Yuji would do anything for him, even share him with Gojo, as long as he came back to her when he was done. ]
iām not special, but he makes me feel like i am he loves me, and i believe him
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ABORT ABORT. ]
Nothing, never mind.
If heās into it, thatās good, right?
What kind of stuff does he want to do?
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if weāre gonna do this we need to be honest with each other
[ Yujiās had her fair share of concerns and jealousies about Suguru and his relationship with Gojo - for a little while in the start of their relationship sheād felt like a consolation prize, because he couldnāt have his best friend. She knows better now, of course, but something those insecurities prickle at her in her weaker moments. ]
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I donāt know, sometimes I just
[ She hesitates, then starts again. ]
You donāt ever wonder if theyād rather just be with each other instead?
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i was really scared that suguru didnāt want me, he just couldnāt have gojo-kun, you know?
but he loves me. he only wants to do this because iām there too.
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[ And knowing that Yuji believes Suguru makes it easier for Megumi to trust every layer of this. She feels like she keeps looking for the proof of her inconvenience, evidence that sheās a resource rather than a partner or (at worst) a useful idiot who only says āyesā because she hopes thatās how sheāll earn love.
But, no, every sign here points towards sincerity, an effort to include her instead of finding a convenient place to shuffle Megumi out of the way. Maybe she should be less braced for rejection and less prepared to do it first. ]
Itās just different, I guess.
[ And scary because of that. ]
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i used to think⦠how could i ever compare to gojo-kun? heās so handsome, and smart, and way better than i am
like, they have a bond i cant touch and i used to get so mad and upset, butā¦
[ Itās hard to put her utter faith in Suguru into words. Yuji truly and utterly believes him when he says he loves her and doesnāt want Satoru, even when sheād bullied and badgered him. Even with the depth of their connection, heād choose her, and has to cling to that trust because otherwise their relationship simply wonāt work.
Sheās not second best. Sheās his wife and he chose her. He loves her.
Yuji would do anything for him, even share him with Gojo, as long as he came back to her when he was done. ]
iām not special, but he makes me feel like i am
he loves me, and i believe him
maybe he feels the same way about you and me
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[ All those other things are good and all, but Megumi is also immediately Activated by this idea that Yuji isnāt special. ]
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why are you shouting at me
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Why are YOU saying you arenāt special
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Oh. [ That took her a second. ]
Well.
Look. [ Oops, now sheās flustered ā but she recovers quickly. ]
I wouldnāt be talking about this at all with someone who isnāt special.
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gojo-kun is in, and suguru is in
what did you want to do
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You and me or all of us?
[ Thereās kind of been two events now, even if only one involved all four of them. ]
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I felt special both times
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[ Cute⦠]
What parts make you feel special?
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i like being used a little.
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Used like how?
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hands, mouth, whatever
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REALLY good.
So you feel special when youāre getting other people off?
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thanks
[ Her face is blazing red. ]
yeah, itās like that
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