[ Megumi can't help but compare it to his own life with Gojo. If anything, his dominant seems to like when Megumi cries; depending on the context, Gojo seems to find it adorable rather than obnoxious. But aside from that, it's not something Megumi can control, especially not in the middle of an intense scene, and he's never even heard a single whisper about punishment for crying. Sometimes, punishment goes until he cries – if that's the goal. ]
Crying is normal. [ Which is apparently the closest Megumi wants to get to admitting that he cries, but... ]
[ Yuji always got the impression he wasn’t supposed to react like that, so when he was punished it was to get him back into ‘focus’… Or sometimes the crying would be ignored and they’d just keep going.
Slumping on the couch, he sighs. ]
Suguru-san hasn’t given me that many rules yet. He keeps asking me to do weird things like squeeze his hand, though.
Dominants are always supposed to give us a way out in a scene – and if you can't talk, you're supposed to have another option.
[ Megumi stares right back at Yuji, baffled and a little angry because this feels... basic. Or maybe it was just basic because he's been in Gojo's house for so long? But he knows Geto is the same way, so... The confusion in Megumi's head is a weird soup, but none of it is directed at Yuji. ]
And nobody ever told you? Him or any other dominants he brought around?
[ Yuji frowns, tilting his head, arms crossing over his body defensively. This is starting to feel as uncomfortable as talking about ‘limits’ had felt with Suguru-san to begin with… Ah, well… ]
Ma- he would decide when things were over, as the dominant.
[ Megumi's eye gives a small twitch. Who the fuck is this guy that Yuji was with before and what the hell is he doing to his subs? He doesn't have another one, right? ]
Then the last guy was a huge asshole. [ Bluntly, not even caring that he's talking about a dominant. ]
And he shouldn't have been treating you or anybody like that.
The point of placements is that you're supposed to end up with a dominant who's into the stuff you're into – or who's gonna help you figure that out. If you weren't getting off on it, you're not obligated to be doing it all the time.
Because you liked it or because you were expected to?
[ Another important point of differentiation, in Megumi's mind. This is a fucking weird conversation, and Megumi isn't sure why he keeps asking, except... he's bothered by what happened to Yuji. That he seems to think it's okay. ]
[ Yuji isn’t uncomfortable, exactly, but it’s clear that Fushiguro is mad at something, and uncomfortable, and he blinks, glancing away. He does know the answer, but… It hurts to think about. It hurts too much. ]
I liked most of it. And even if it wasn’t my favourite, it made him feel good, so that was okay with me too.
[ Most of it. What about the other stuff? Megumi is starting to realize he should perhaps tone down his poking and prodding, because now he knows he's edging into more dangerous territory. And he just met Yuji.
Sighing, Megumi rubs at the back of his neck, looking off to the side. ]
Sorry. That— got really personal. [ That's sure a way to describe it. ]
It just... sounds like that guy was shitty to you.
It's okay? I've talked about it a lot over the last few weeks, so it's not like it bothers me or anything.
[ All the different people at the housing centre, poking and prodding him for the depth of what happened between him and Mahito, so he's a little bit numb to it all. The idea of it being that bad hasn't settled on his shoulders, so he shoves it all aside.
They were just meant to be playing a game... ]
I don't think it was that bad, but Suguru-san seems pretty annoyed all the time.
[ That seems to be an unavoidable reality with Suguru, from Megumi's perspective. The guy complains a lot about placements and about roles and about the government, so he often just seems annoyed. ]
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Crying is normal. [ Which is apparently the closest Megumi wants to get to admitting that he cries, but... ]
Does Geto say you're not supposed to cry?
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[ Yuji always got the impression he wasn’t supposed to react like that, so when he was punished it was to get him back into ‘focus’… Or sometimes the crying would be ignored and they’d just keep going.
Slumping on the couch, he sighs. ]
Suguru-san hasn’t given me that many rules yet. He keeps asking me to do weird things like squeeze his hand, though.
[ Like a safe signal… ]
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[ And Yuji finds that weird? Fuck. ]
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[ Yuji, thinking Megumi is on his wavelength here. ]
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[ A dominant is supposed to always give their submissive a way to communicate if the verbal avenue is no longer available. ]
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[ Yuji just… Stares at Megumi for a moment, feeling like he’s totally missed something. He’s been so well trained, how could he…? ]
I… I’ve never done that.
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[ Megumi stares right back at Yuji, baffled and a little angry because this feels... basic. Or maybe it was just basic because he's been in Gojo's house for so long? But he knows Geto is the same way, so... The confusion in Megumi's head is a weird soup, but none of it is directed at Yuji. ]
And nobody ever told you? Him or any other dominants he brought around?
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[ Yuji frowns, tilting his head, arms crossing over his body defensively. This is starting to feel as uncomfortable as talking about ‘limits’ had felt with Suguru-san to begin with… Ah, well… ]
Ma- he would decide when things were over, as the dominant.
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[ Right??? ]
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[ Yuji rubs his chin, as if deep in thought. ]
Suguru-san said we had to use those, and safe words too, so...
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That's how every dominant is supposed to act. That's kind of their Basics 101.
[ Whether or not every dominant in society does the same is another matter. ]
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[ :) ]
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Then the last guy was a huge asshole. [ Bluntly, not even caring that he's talking about a dominant. ]
And he shouldn't have been treating you or anybody like that.
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[ If training Yuji to deal with all the kinks in the world without complaining is 'good' training... ]
I'm well-trained now.
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[ Well-trained for what? ]
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[ Holding his fingers out to an alarming width. ]
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And it's all stuff you're into?
[ Maybe... Yuji just has a ton of kinks??? ]
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[ Like... Enjoys? Yuji blinks, leaning back on the couch and tilting his head. ]
It's all fine...? It's whatever.
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The point of placements is that you're supposed to end up with a dominant who's into the stuff you're into – or who's gonna help you figure that out. If you weren't getting off on it, you're not obligated to be doing it all the time.
[ At least, that's what Megumi was taught. ]
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[ Is it embarrassing to tell a practical stranger that you orgasmed with a dominant who definitely pushed you a lot? Yuji rubs the back of his head. ]
It happened almost every time.
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[ Another important point of differentiation, in Megumi's mind. This is a fucking weird conversation, and Megumi isn't sure why he keeps asking, except... he's bothered by what happened to Yuji. That he seems to think it's okay. ]
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I liked most of it. And even if it wasn’t my favourite, it made him feel good, so that was okay with me too.
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Sighing, Megumi rubs at the back of his neck, looking off to the side. ]
Sorry. That— got really personal. [ That's sure a way to describe it. ]
It just... sounds like that guy was shitty to you.
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[ All the different people at the housing centre, poking and prodding him for the depth of what happened between him and Mahito, so he's a little bit numb to it all. The idea of it being that bad hasn't settled on his shoulders, so he shoves it all aside.
They were just meant to be playing a game... ]
I don't think it was that bad, but Suguru-san seems pretty annoyed all the time.
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[ That seems to be an unavoidable reality with Suguru, from Megumi's perspective. The guy complains a lot about placements and about roles and about the government, so he often just seems annoyed. ]
But he seems extra annoyed by your old dom?
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