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NAME: Yuji Itadori
BIRTHDAY: March 20th
FAV CAKE FLAVOR: Anything is fine!

WHAT THEY WANT MOST FOR THEIR BIRTHDAY: To spend as much time with Gojo-sensei and Nanamin as possible! 🙏

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[eyescar]

[ It's not as if Yuji would've been adept at it either way; he's never been great at the sciences, and though he really does try his best in academics it's not his forte. Anyone would be able to tell him that, and he doesn't need a real lesson on stars to remind him.

Turning his head back to the stars, he listens as Gojo talks, tilting his head and trying to wrap his mind around the lesson. The idea of something like this happening in the skies above them, stars exploding, black holes, all of it... It does make him feel a little small. As if what he's doing has less meaning.

Probably the opposite of Gojo's lesson, so he shakes his head and turns back to listen to him. ]

Aah... Sensei...

[ Yuji wouldn't want to tell him, they both know that, but he's glad for the out. Still... ]

It does, but... I don't really know how I can do that. Not with things as they are right now. I'm not going to tell you it all, but... [ He shakes his head. ] My star isn't that important compared to everything else. If it goes out, it'll be okay.

[unliminal]

[ Yuji's response isn't exactly surprising, but that's part of why Gojo needs to return, isn't it? To see just what's going on, if he even can. Even so, he doubts that's really true, that Yuji's star isn't important. That it can go out. There couldn't be anything further than the truth, and isn't helping his students realize that why he wanted to teach in the first place? So they could grow to build their own lives, shape their own world? ]

Bullshit. I don't buy it. [ Simple as that. ] But you don't need to try to convince me. I'm heading back home soon, so...maybe I'll see what you're talking about with my own Six Eyes.

[ And while he doesn't think his stance will change, at least then, Yuji will know he has the full weight of knowledge behind his decision, that it isn't something that Gojo proselytizes without anything to back it up. ]

I'm going tomorrow, sooo if you wanna throw me a party, your time is limited.

[eyescar]

[ As soon as Gojo says he's heading back, Yuji is whipping around. It looks almost comedic, his body jerking a little as his arms wave and wiggle, his focus on the man in front of him. This isn't what he wants, this isn't fair, but it's not as if he can force Gojo-sensei to stay or anything like that... He doesn't have that kind of strength, even with his new abilities.

Instead, his expression breaks, and he swallows. There's so much he could say, but he doesn't know... Will Gojo-sensei remember it? What's the point of frightening him, of warning him? ]

Sensei...

[ His hands clench, squeezing. ]

I don't want you to go.

[unliminal]

[ He expected this. Knew it was coming, and yet for all he shored up his defenses, for all he likes to think his walls are impenetrable, the wave of Yuji's emotions crashing down hard against them like a wave, forcing a pressure against his chest that he doesn't like at all. Leaving really is the selfish thing to do, isn't it? If he really wanted to put the others first...would it be better to stay?

He'll never know, until he goes. That's the problem. ]

...I know.

[ Even more than Megumi, he knew Yuji would want him to stay. ]

But I always knew I would have to. Long before you, or Megumi, or even Nanami showed up. It's like...ehhh, I just know there's some crazy spoilers for a manga I've been reading, but I don't wanna find out another way. I gotta go read for myself.

[ He won't go so far as to tell Yuji that he's going to take care of things. He doesn't remind him that he's the strongest, and so he doesn't need to worry. He doesn't tell him that everything will be okay, because how could he even say that, with the state Yuji is in? He's...

Yeah. He's afraid, and it sucks, but he has to go. He's always had to. ]

[eyescar]

I still wish I could stop you.

[ It makes a kind of sense, when Gojo says it like this, but Yuji is still miserable about it. He can't say what's wrong, he can't admit it, no matter how much he wishes, and he has to stop himself from sinking into that pit again. Problem after problem... Mm, it keeps happening, and Yuji doesn't know how he can fix it, how he can make everyone here happy, as if that's somehow his job.

He wanted to bring joy, to help, to protect people, not...

Yuji can't lift his head and look at Gojo, staring at his hands instead, which is a really weird sensation when he's still literally floating. ]

I'd beat you up if I thought I could, Gojo-sensei.

[unliminal]

..Nah, you can't.

[ Despite the seriousness of the moment, he's still Gojo, and he won't pretend that Yuji could beat him, even with his new abilities. Still, it's mean to diffuse the tension somewhat as well, and remind Yuji just how strong he is. Whatever happens when he goes back...

...Gojo will rely on his strength alone, like he always does. So long as he does that, then the outcome can't be too bad, right? ]

Especially not in zero gravity. [ ... ] Nanami will still be here, and Megumi, too. You won't be alone, so don't think you are, okay?

[ Even if he can't tell them the truth, either, he still isn't alone. ]

It's not goodbye, anyway. Just a see you later.

[eyescar]

I know that! I said 'if I could'...

[ As if Yuji is going to deliberately weigh Nanamin down... Even if that's what he ends up doing. He's going to feel bad, he's going to feel guilty, but there's nothing he can do about that other than force himself to fight through it, force himself to accept how things are.

Gojo-sensei is leaving, and when - if? when? - he comes back... Everything will be different, and he'll know why.

A shaky hand lifts to touch his face, where his scars should be, and he wilts a little. ]

I'll take care of them, sensei. Okay?

[unliminal]

[ Yuji's words echo somewhat what Gojo had told Nanami, that they should take care of each other, that it isn't enough for them to take care of themselves. He can only imagine what's going through Yuji's mind right now, other than...he likely feels powerless, unable to stop a runaway train, so giving him something that he can do is critical. The others will need him.

He still doesn't realize how valuable his presence is, but if he were the type of person who did, then he wouldn't be Yuji. ]

You better. They're gonna need you, even if they don't admit it. [ None of them ever admit they need anything. ] I'll be counting on you.

[ He reaches out a hand and holds it aloft, ready for a high-five. ]

[eyescar]

[ It's going to be hard, there's no denying it, and Yuji wishes it was easier, but... It's not that simple, is it? He can't just shrug it all off like other people seem to be able to. He carries it too intensely, too deeply, and it weighs him down, which is almost a little ironic considering they're on the space floor. All he can do is try and push through it all and give his sensei that one last little smile.

He manages it, but it's teary.

The kind he gave Fushiguro before he died, all the way back at the beginning. ]

You can count on me. I'll support them, no matter what.

[ And he gives Gojo a gentle high five. ]